My Life in A Recap

January 2019,

Before we start, let's do the math.

It's been about 8 months since the last time I posted anything on my blog. My bad. Life happened, and I know it's not a good excuse, but at least I'm writing again, aren't I?

First of all, let me just say HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!🙌🙌🙌

And now let me tell you what has happened in the last 8 months. More traveling for me, of course, did twice visit home in Okinawa (yes, because I was homesick and trying to keep my words for my friends), winning a grand prize that brought me to another trip and so much more! But most of all, last year has taught me so much about how much of a better person I should be, and how life always have its own mysterious way to get you to that certain level, most of the time, with a bang. The past few months have been such a roller coaster ride, in good and bad ways. Since I've thrown so much about the shitty part of my life, let me share about the good part now. 

It all started right after my last failed romance, where I was dumped in the middle of vacation, with no back up plan, just days after the guy asked me to move in with him. I was in such a bad place, but then I decided to do something that will change my life in the most unexpected way. I decided to ask this guy for a meet up, at my favourite restaurant - yes you guess it, Coco Ichibanya the Curry House! After another spectacular meal, we walked around the city towards my favourite spot on the island: The Seawall 💕. In such a short time, we clicked. Especially after we shared a passionate kiss up on a ferris wheels. I'm not gonna lie, that was a smooth move, perhaps that could make his top 5 by far. 

And with every single thing that has happened, we stay together. He beat the odds like nobody else has ever done. He made the effort, the real one. He was so genuine, nice, smart, tall (super tall!), kind hearted, understanding and most of all the most honest guy I've ever known. It's just funny to look back to where it all started. It was such a cliche I should say. How wasn't it? We met when I was such a train wreck, when I don't even know what I want in life, when I can't even look at myself without cursing for what has happened, and when I don't even know if I'm gonna love the person I see on the mirror. He was the only one who took his time and actually trying to get to know me. The real me, with all the good and bad that's in me. He was the one person who help me keeps my sanity together, not for him, it was for me. 

Our story wasn't like the epic fairy tale of course, but just realising the fact that he's with me, makes me feel blessed and very grateful. I've known as the one who has bad taste in man, I mean, look at my other story. I tend to trust so quickly, and fall in love only to get hurt in such a short time. Have that built up, I was pretty defensive with him. I didn't let him in, not so quickly. I chose to tell him the ugly stories of my past instead of giving him a chance to know me better. But he kept trying and trying and trying and I fell for him. I've never seen someone tried that hard to be a part of my life, to know more of me, to invest his time for our future (that agreed to take one step at a time), and most of all to love and accept me for who I am.

Until today, I still can't believe this is actually happening to me. I have a great man who love me regardless of what I did in the past. He's not interested in my past because he's interested in the person that I am right now, and who I wanna become in the future. One time when I was worrying about how I don't wanna let him down or making him upset, he looked me in the eyes and said "You shouldn't worry about what I think about you. If you love someone, you'll accept them for who you are". And that was the first time he said the L word to me 💗. That's when I know I fall for the right person. 

Our story might just started, but I have a good feeling about us. That this is the best decision I've made in my life. I may screw things up a whole lot more before, but this is the one time I know I'll do anything not to blow my chance for a happy life. He's not just the man I fell in love with, he's also my best friend. Keeping him in my life will be my goal, because he's God's best gift I've ever had. And everyday I wake up thanking God I have him in my life. And I can't wait to see what the future will bring for us.

For now, I hope you guys are still sticking to the new years resolutions, like I have been with my workout.

Cheers,

Arlia